My energy is

gone this week. Nothing satisfies me and I don't want to do anything. I miss smoking terribly and wish there were no ramifications to that addiction. I don't feel like going anywhere or doing anything -- except, maybe going to the shore. That's really all I want to do is be near the water and the sand. I am unmotivated and generally sluggish.

TV is actually boring for me -- even my favorite crime shows. When I work on a crossword puzzle I feel so disgusted with myself at the amount of time I'm wasting. I still can't sleep. I eat for no reason. I sleep all the time. This is depression, I'm sure. I'll probably get over it in a few days, but the energy part of this is what's driving me into misery.