New York

is, for me, a place where I will forever wish I lived.
Being there makes me feel alive.

Audrey and I were there today and for some reason, I find
New Yorkers to be friendly and easy going. I feel like people
in Philly are way tougher.

But I have realized the most important thing to me and I
continue to feel resolve about my present position. I am
in touch with the fact that I am afraid of putting down roots.
I am aware of the fact that I have some weird issue with
commitment. And I'm ready to try to tackle this over achievement
thing once and for all.

At this point, I want to worry less about my future, regret less my past
and focus on now.

It seems almost impossible for me.